Burden of the past

A contemptuous start.
Cute impressions.
Slow attractions.
Sudden impulses.
Wicked temptations.
Hurried actions.
Deliberate deeds.
Immense pleasures.

"Sweet yet Bitter"

Secrets revealed
Facts denied
Lies
Suspicions

"The Truth"

Unwilling confessions.
Heart break.
Betrayal.
Lost trust.
Endless pleads and apologies.
Insecurity.
Pain.
Anger.
Hatred.
Ignorance.
Sorrow.
Questions unanswered.

"The Untimely,Uninvited guest"

Anguish.
Repentance.
Guilt,
Forever...

Haunting memories

Haunted by the thoughts,she sat in darkness, remembering last winter that went cheerless. Fallen down in pain,growling feebly, ripped through and bleeding heavily. He looked into her tear filled eyes, may be,wanting to thank her for being so nice. She took him into her lap, hugged him tight and soothed with her pats. She stroked him gently and helpless; listened to his fading voice,restless. Tears uncontrolled,dripped onto his fur, holding a painful heart,not easy to cure. She went cold with numbness, that December evening filled with sadness. Feeling rancorous,still stroking,she stared, at her beloved,quarried. Letting out a hoarse,painful cry, the Spaniel named Charlie,died. She lives her life treasuring his toys and memories, unwilling to experience the pain of losing another Charlie. (written in memory of a long lost friend and my beloved doggie,Caesar,a Great Dane). Thats for you,Cezu No matter how many people come and go in your life,no individual you have shared your deepest emotions and feelings with,can be replaced by another.

Highway on my turbulent emotional torrent

I don't know whom to trust now.
Every time i trusted someone,i was let down.

What do i do to have the buoyancy?
Do i follow my instincts behind me?

No matter how hard i try to disguise the pain,
its revealed as the worst weaknesses that ever remains.

On my drenched pillow,i lay insomniac...

I fake my expressions to you,
fooling myself for so long,so true.

Everything you've said to me
is nothing but a myth,i realize.

The best of all the false,
being the one u often told me,in clause.

I loved every time i heard it.

Until ignorance gave you bliss
and loneliness gave me a kiss.

For the last time now,
i would trust myself,somehow.

Anguish

So close, no matter how far. I still miss her, from the deepest of my heart. Not too long that i knew her, and already she has left me. Alone. Like the sky with its missing moon. Running down the memory lane, i know not anybody,so sane. Souly attached to me and my sisterhood. Everytime i hear her, I feel so much so same. Synchronized thoughts on everything spoken Undying emotions,same sweet sentiments. None remain hidden, from me,from her nor from him. But words last spoken has deceived her, on what wasn't done deliberately. Impulsive acts,annoyance in her, anguish in him and the guilt in me. I say not a word more,against her nor could i see her in blue. I find no way out of this distress thats created a whorlpool of confusion with mixed emotions,away from tranquillity. Defeated amidst a splendid friendship of three, bloomed and rising to eternity. i lay low,having not succeeded watering the withered blooms, with my tears of love and compassion, which has now changed, my melodious songs of life into sorrowful mourns. Deepest apologies with the everlasting guilt is the only hope that remains...

Trapped

Light! In my life?
No,no. There is no
trace of it in my life.


There is light around me.
Light everywhere.
But,but, nothing gives light to my dark soul.
Will my soul have a ray of it at least,someday?


I do not know.
i cant think nor hope for it.


This memory haunts me day and night.
what a ridiculous and deserted life.
Darkness tries to trap me into its web


I feel hopeless and lost
i don't understand it.
Sadness,but i cheer myself
and brush my tears away.

But it all sways back to me and says,
Forever yours...