I Write

In memory of...

2011-12-11T10:15:00.004-05:00

In the hearts of his blessed,
he will always be remembered best.

A man with many admirers,wherever;
For all he had done,drew 'em closer.

The times he spent with every other,
are most cherished, filled with laughter.

'A helping' over a needy shoulder,
Modesty was his name, another.

Always been the likes of everybody,
May he be at peace and harmony.

This was written a year back in memory of a very jovial uncle,Gopal Mama whom my family has lost and will always be remembered for the best of all he has done, and the person he had been.

'Mean'nocent

2011-12-10T05:40:00.003-05:00

She works her hands to vulnerability,
Under the nose of constant scrutiny.

A negligent government and a reproachful society,
Lead to her quiet servitude and endless poverty.

Inordinate, has it become, her desires for education,
Inadequate, is her income for her family's sustenance.

A disturbed liberty to chase her dreams,
underprivileged to live beyond her means.

My World

2010-05-01T11:29:00.004-04:00

Do you wanna hear my song?
Then you've gotcha come along.

Into my secret world,
where you hear no hurl,
and the babies laugh,
when the animals talk.

Where the paupers dance,
in a state of trance,
in the holy shower,
of wealth and power.

Where the winds blow wild,
and the sun glows mild,
when the happy birds fly,
with their chirps delight.

In this blue green world,
of a happy li'l girl,
trees gleefully swirl,
and the water waves curl.

Well the world is here,
but its not so real,
coz it happens when i sleep,
in my sweet li'l dreams.

To Albus

2010-04-30T08:49:00.003-04:00

None believed the adonis life,paradoxic,
amidst his silence so very mystique.

Adored for all the wises,
an inspiration and a longing aegis.

A soul unseen,yet felt and admired,
for his omnisience, could've been i desire.

Though an invincible,he chose his destiny,
Leaving the onlookers with grief and anxiety.

The greatest of all men,in the wizarding history,
under the white tomb,rested in peace and harmony.

A reason for my prayers

2010-02-21T05:41:00.006-05:00

Though i'm dazed and confused,
there are times about u i muse.

Those soulful delights beyond all measures,
are the ones i will always treasure.

You might see the feeling of hatred in me;
but my heart burns fervent with love for thee.

Many sleepless nights i pray for you,my love;
hoping for God to hear from the Heaven above.

I pray, these words i whisper in the air,
to give you warmth and courage when in despair.

I wish for these prayers from my heart to build a shield,
Which will protect you always from all kinds of miseries.

I regret not,anymore that we never made it together,
my only cravings are your happiness and safety forever.

I mean no harm to thee,
You'll always be the reasons for my humble pleas.

If you could only understand my heart's sorrows and pain,
beyond which those little but sweet memories still remain.

You may never hear from me ever again
But the reason for my prayers,you'll remain.

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2010-02-13T11:11:00.004-05:00

When theres no one around to talk,
In this journey,alone i would walk.

Sharing my laughter and tears,
All by myself,without any fear.

But there'll be no one to laugh along,
Nor a shoulder to cry upon.

Why do they leave me alone?
the people who,to me were once known.

What if i had never let them go?
Would they be the same people i ever know?

With the drifting shadows of a dream,once broken

2010-01-16T01:03:00.004-05:00

It feels so alone inside,
Thoughts remain with out an answer;
Afraid and uninvited,
Slowly drifting, so late.

Grouped by desire and fear,
And the broken delicate ways;
With the drifting shadows,
Of a dream, once broken.

As the rain pours down,
Tears of sorrow wash away;
Like a drop of fire,
Drifting with the current,
The stream of life flows on.

Grouped by desire and fear,
Taking a few steps away;
With the drifting shadows,
Of a dream once broken...

Get well soon,Mom!

2009-12-20T06:39:00.003-05:00

Missing the cuddly hugs and your light hearted humour on me. :(
Waiting for the delicious aroma from the kitchen,fill my room! :D
Wanting to see you healthy with that glowing smile that always lightens us :)

Mom,missing you in the daily routine. Wishing you a super fast recovery and hope to see you back up on your feet again,real soon. Take care!
Love,Archan

HaPpY BiRtHdAy,DaDdY!

2009-12-16T23:37:00.005-05:00

I remember the first days,
i hold your li'l finger and walked along.
You taught me how to walk.

I cherish the days i never accepted defeats,
in those silly games we played.
You never let me down.

I'll never forget those days you scold me,
and i walked away with silent tears.
You have taught me right from wrong.

I think of the times,you make us laugh,
with your pleasant sense of humour.
You are the most jovial person in the world.

Your words i value the most.
For,you always help me and give the best advice.

On this day, I pray for you,
for all your wishes to come true.

Today we celebrate your life,
So Dad, Happy Birthday to you.

An Oath..

2009-11-28T12:25:00.002-05:00

Your refuge,i take,
in your presence i dwell.

I owe my life to you,
my companion forever,you stay.

You took me through your path,
to show your truest attire.

Not chosen by all,
I abide in you for ever...

in the dark.

Life's like a boat..

2009-11-23T01:41:00.005-05:00

Nobody knows who i really am,
I never felt this empty before.
And if i ever need someone to come along,
who's gonna comfort me and keep me strong?

The journey will still go on..
even on the quietest days,
Along with the passing clouds,
Allowing a slight shimmer upon...

After the moon completes its phase,
it will shine light upon,with grace.
I pray and wait for the new day to come,
until it arrives across the vividly sparkling ocean.

A Fading heart...

2009-11-16T01:19:00.001-05:00

For what you don't know,is killing me inside.
For what you didn't do,is what I need to confide.

My feelings for you haven't just vanished into the night,
For it is your hand I wish to hold tight.

Sad emotions enter my mind,
Searching for answers, still longing to find.

Commitment was the word we did not say,
That's why this heart is fading away.

I know..

2009-11-13T22:54:00.003-05:00

I know deep in my heart,
I would be lost without your love.
For i know how your love,
keeps me buoyant at heart.

I know you love me so much,
For i have you in my dreams.
Everyday when i lay on my bed,
and when i wake up,i see you.

I know that our heart beats as one,
even without seeing each other.
I am thankful it is you who is for me,
but life never chose me for you.

I know, you are the same for me,
willing to share the sweet and sour.
Life makes it all bitter for me,
With a blend of sadness and tears,everlasting

Silver wishes!

2009-10-27T04:53:00.007-04:00

The rhythmic beats of two hearts,synchronized,
creating a melodious song of life.

Full of richness divine and authenticity,
the most priceless gift has ever brought to thee.

And this wealth of love,unconditional,
has created a milestone,blazed with glory.

Reliving those happy moments,
may you shine under this silver radiance.

And keep humming the melodies,
enriching your hearts now and in the coming years too

Love you Mom and Dad!
Wishing you a very Happy Silver Anniversary!

Never everlasting..

2009-10-24T23:14:00.009-04:00

Like a butterfly,it eludes when chased,
but sits softly on our shoulders,unattended.

Like a star flickering on a cloudy night,
it tries to illumine the space around.

Like a thunderbolt,jolting from the skies,
giving joggles every time it strikes.

Like a flower,the one day beauty,
blooms at dawn and withers at dusk.

Like a bird,it flies away,
when its flock migrates their autumn flyway.

Like a river's streaming flows,
it moves away,unstamped on the same waters again.

Hence,the blissful feeling of contentment,
happiness is never everlasting.

If tears could speak...

2009-10-24T12:39:00.005-04:00

If my tears could speak,what would they convey?
Thousands of feelings which words could never say.

They would whisper, I'm sorry!,
when i am wrong and you are right.
They would scream, I'm scared!,
in your absence,on the darkest night.

They would exclaim,I'm Happy!,
when you are around me.
They would sigh,I'm sad!,
when i am feeling low.

They would reply,I'm lonely!,
when you are not with me.
They would say,I'm hurt!,
when you don't get along with me.

They would confess,I'm missing you!,
when you are in my thoughts.
They do speak a lot,heard or unheard.
And at times just wiped away by your gentle touch.

Is it too late for you to see?
That my tears cry out "I Love You!"

They do speak,unheard by you,
even a single word they say.
If only you could read a tear,
instead of wiping it away...

Frozen tears.

2009-10-19T06:05:00.006-04:00

Even though i said the final good-bye
Even though it was all up to me
I still cry...
For when we were the best of friends
For the time we spent together
And for what was never supposed to be..

Till my heart ache ends...

2009-10-19T05:45:00.008-04:00

I recall,when you said,you would never leave me.
You told me more,
so much more that when at times you whispered in my ears,
I felt heaven in my heart.
I remember when you said,you'll be here forever...

Then you left....
Without even saying that you're leaving.
You made many similar bonds like the one you shared with me...
I was hurt,
And it really won't be easy to forget yesterday
And i prayed that you would stay,for me
But then you're gone and so far away....

I was afraid,this time would come
I wasn't prepared to face this kind of hurting from within.
I have learnt to leave my life beside you.
Maybe i'll just dream of you tonight
And if into my dreams you'd come once again

I'll just keep on dreaming till my heart aches ends....

Dedicated to a dear old friend who lost his ladylove forever. May her soul R.I.P

SUFFOCATION

2009-10-14T04:42:00.006-04:00

Everything changes with time.
Habits to addictions,
Beauty allures and sags,
Bonds are made,some fade,some break.

Some repent,some don't.
Who do,they suffer yet recover.
Who don't,they are strangled forever.

I jilt,lately,
realizing my eventful acts,taking all the pleasures.
Unthoughtful of hurting and being hurt.
Ethically imbalanced,i stand an enigma to myself.

Paranoid,i lurk;longing for asylum.
Vulnerably,i whinge to the walls,unheard.
Having traumatized to another betrayal,
toxicated completely.En masse,i live dead.

The Last Kiss.

2009-10-12T04:50:00.010-04:00

Adorned in black,lit by the golden rise,

She sat awaiting,just for him,

Who stood behind a palm,

getting his first glimpse of her,at daybreak.

Still gaping at her beauty,

he walked towards his lady love.

Presenting her a bunch of red roses,

they sat,hand in hand.

Tuned to her voice,divine,

admiring her beauty,hypnotic.

United their hearts,bound with sweetness,

long,will last this togetherness,blissful.

Mesmerized deeply,lost in the lover's paradise,

unaware of the time they sat till twilight.

Until overshadowed by darkness,mystique.

Their path lit by the dim moon light,

she walked him to a mansion by a cemetery.

Highly illumined beyond his imaginations,

captivated by the antiques,all with her name etched.

He took pleasure of everything,insatiably.

They danced to the tunes of a librettist;

Dined and drowned royally,into a delicious irony.

Nothing seemed illusive,till the last kiss.

Pierced into his neck and the oozing out red,

She quenched her thirst,from her 'beloved',

who laid anesthetized,in the cemetery.

Asleep to eternity,and hence buried.

Burden of the past

2009-09-25T06:08:00.002-04:00

A contemptuous start.
Cute impressions.
Slow attractions.
Sudden impulses.
Wicked temptations.
Hurried actions.
Deliberate deeds.
Immense pleasures.

"Sweet yet Bitter"

Secrets revealed.
Facts denied.
Lies.
Suspicions.

"The Truth"

Unwilling confessions.
Heart break.
Betrayal.
Lost trust.
Endless pleads and apologies.
Insecurity.
Pain.
Anger.
Hatred.
Ignorance.
Sorrow.
Questions unanswered.

"The Untimely,Uninvited guest"

Anguish.
Repentance.
Guilt,
Forever...

Haunting memories

2009-09-22T08:34:00.007-04:00

Haunted by the thoughts,she sat in darkness,
remembering last winter that went cheerless.

Fallen down in pain,growling feebly,
ripped through and bleeding heavily.

He looked into her tear filled eyes,
may be,wanting to thank her for being so nice.

She took him into her lap,
hugged him tight and soothed with her pats.

She stroked him gently and helpless;
listened to his fading voice,restless.

Tears uncontrolled,dripped onto his fur,
holding a painful heart,not easy to cure.

She went cold with numbness,
that December evening filled with sadness.

Feeling rancorous,still stroking,she stared,
at her beloved,quarried.

Letting out a hoarse,painful cry,
the Spaniel named Charlie,died.

She lives her life treasuring his toys and memories,
unwilling to experience the pain of losing another Charlie.

(written in memory of a long lost friend and my beloved doggie,Caesar,a Great Dane).
Thats for you,Cezu

No matter how many people come and go in your life,no individual you have shared your deepest emotions and feelings with,can be replaced by another.

Highway on my turbulent emotional torrent

2009-09-19T03:31:00.005-04:00

I don't know whom to trust now.
Every time i trusted someone,i was let down.

What do i do to have the buoyancy?
Do i follow my instincts behind me?

No matter how hard i try to disguise the pain,
its revealed as the worst weaknesses that ever remains.

On my drenched pillow,i lay insomniac...

I fake my expressions to you,
fooling myself for so long,so true.

Everything you've said to me
is nothing but a myth,i realize.

The best of all the false,
being the one u often told me,in clause.

I loved every time i heard it.

Until ignorance gave you bliss
and loneliness gave me a kiss.

For the last time now,
i would trust myself,somehow.

Anguish

2009-09-11T04:13:00.005-04:00

So close,
no matter how far.
I still miss her,
from the deepest of my heart.

Not too long that i knew her,
and already she has left me.
Alone.

Like the sky with its missing moon.

Running down the memory lane,
i know not anybody,so sane.
Souly attached to me and my sisterhood.

Everytime i hear her,
I feel so much so same.

Synchronized thoughts on everything spoken
Undying emotions,same sweet sentiments.
None remain hidden,
from me,from her nor from him.

But words last spoken has deceived her,
on what wasn't done deliberately.

Impulsive acts,annoyance in her,
anguish in him and the guilt in me.

I say not a word more,against her
nor could i see her in blue.

I find no way out of this distress
thats created a whorlpool of confusion
with mixed emotions,away from tranquillity.

Defeated amidst a splendid friendship of three,
bloomed and rising to eternity.

i lay low,having not succeeded
watering the withered blooms,
with my tears of love and compassion,
which has now changed,
my melodious songs of life
into sorrowful mourns.

Deepest apologies with the everlasting guilt
is the only hope that remains...

Trapped

2009-09-03T11:46:00.004-04:00

Light! In my life?
No,no. There is no
trace of it in my life.

There is light around me.
Light everywhere.
But,but, nothing gives light to my dark soul.
Will my soul have a ray of it at least,someday?

I do not know.
i cant think nor hope for it.

This memory haunts me day and night.
what a ridiculous and deserted life.
Darkness tries to trap me into its web

I feel hopeless and lost
i don't understand it.
Sadness,but i cheer myself
and brush my tears away.

But it all sways back to me and says,
Forever yours...

Solitary

2009-08-19T03:01:00.000-04:00

Days,weeks,months,years rolled by,I know not
When and how...
I waited
I had no choice
All my dreams are shattered.

And now
I have many sad stories
Piled in my heart
One on top of the other
But still i wait.

In worrying
I lost my beauty
The stars in my eyes
have disappeared
without a trace.

There are some trees
In the garden
They are so green and fresh,
without company they stand
without experience of loneliness.

Two little sparrows that flew past me,
cheered me up
by their chirps
but an owl sent me
a mournful greetings.

But i could hear the quail
sending a brief hurried call
he may be longing for
a company
Just
Like me.